I accepted the fact that you're not a romantic type.. but it's still hard for me to cope with the fact that you won't ever be. I guess I didn't realize how hard it would be when our (unofficial) 2 year anniversary came around. It's so hard to realize you won't ever plan any cute dinners or days filled with fun.. No flowers sent to my house on my birthday. No surprises. No romantic gifts, or grand romantic gestures. We PICK OUT presents for each other together. Where is the romance?

I've been asking you for WEEKS, for what you wanted to do. We got lucky, because our anniversary fell on a Friday; not some day in the middle of the week. You just kept saying "I don't know," like that answer would help me. I kept giving you suggestions of something fun and out of the ordinary that we could do, and you kept saying "I don't care. Plan whatever you want." What is a girl supposed to do with that answer? Honestly, a lot. But I'm not going to put so much effort into planning something and ending up with you not even wanting to be there. You always say you'll do whatever I want, but end up complaining in some way. I'VE BEEN ASKING YOU WHAT YOU WANT, and you're unable to give me an answer. Yeah, yeah, there's your "I'll eat anything, just not shit" example.. but that gets me NOWHERE. That is NOT what you want. Then there are those times when I make suggestions because it's what I want to do, and you shoot it down. Saying it's too greasy to eat, it's too hot to do that, it's too cold, too late.. all of that bullshit.

This isn't going to work if we can't even fucking agree on doing something for the night or day. I know you "just want to spend time together." But we do that EVERY time we see each other. Is it so fucking wrong to want to do something special for our anniversary? 2 year is a huge thing for me. I've NEVER been with someone for this long, straight through.

You said your "we're not married" bullshit today. I know we're not married. Because you don't WANT to marry me in the first place. You wouldn't even do it 5 or 6 years down the line. Or your "I don't know. We'll see" shit. What is so wrong with trying to see a future with you? If not, what's the reason we're dating, anyways? I was trying to find someone I could settle down with, and ground me, so I wouldn't be wasting my time, jumping from meaningless relationship to meaningless relationship. I thought I found that in YOU, but you don't care. "It scares you." Whatever. Just because you have two friends that got married and divorced before the age of 22, that does not mean that you will be the same. THOSE "FRIENDS" ARE DUMB. You know it, I know it, all of your friends know it. WE will not end up like that, if we do get married down the line. You would never stay home all day playing WoW with your friend's little 15 year old brother. NEVER. We are not them.

But now.. where do we go from here?